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He... you....

You're online right as I type this aren't you?

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soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes.
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh...

I feel like I should apologize.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Why?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
Because recently I have lashed out at you when it was myself that I could not stand.

It isn't fair to you.

I'm sorry.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
I accept your apology.
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:39 pm (UTC) (Link)
Okay.

Good.

I don't like hurting you Trowa. I hate myself because I did that.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Do your current actions make you feel the same?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
What "current actions" do you mean? There's a lot of current actions that make me feel like that.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
What you just announced to everyone.
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
The marriage was going to happen sooner or later Trowa. You knew that.

I have to make up for the damage I've done.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
What damage is this making up for?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Everything!

I know I can justify what I did, but I don't want to anymore.

The world and space are crying Trowa and I thought peace would make it stop but it hasn't and it hurts.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
How will being married change any of that?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
At least it's productive. Sitting here feeling sorry for myself and being riddled with guilt isn't helping anyone!
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
Will this help?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's what people want.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 12th, 2005 11:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
Does it help you?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 12th, 2005 11:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's helps me be a better person to bare the responsibility of my name.
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 13th, 2005 12:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Does it make you happy?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 13th, 2005 12:12 am (UTC) (Link)
Trowa...

I...

only you make me happy
soulesssoldier From: soulesssoldier Date: April 13th, 2005 12:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Does it make you happy or not?
usual_business From: usual_business Date: April 13th, 2005 12:16 am (UTC) (Link)
No. I'm such a coward. I can't even bring myself to say this in a color you can see. I love you. And I can't love you anymore. I have things I need to do. I'm sorry.
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